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IMorbidX
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Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 6/13/1987
Interests: nothing. i do nothing and my life and the way it is and has been proves it
Expertise: if i had any area that i was somewhat good at...just a little bit proud of... i would tell you.
Message: message me
Member Since:
12/18/2002
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| My little kittie Ate me.
Hate
Pain
Anger
hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
pain
pain
hate
pain
anger
ANGER
PAIN
HATE | | |
| It is the end isnt it. I never thought that i...
Having pain you cant describe hurts, it hurts too much to breathe, to walk, but i wait. I wait on a name i hate. I wait on chair on a hope, i wait to be crushed into the box i've made myself, i wait for a ring and a tear, i wait for the light by the stairs, i wait for the wind to blow, i wait, i wait for the season to change, i wait for them to stop, i wait till they leave me, i wait, i wait with the numbers behind, i wait for the ringing, i wait for the pain, i wait, i wait until the skys turn dark, i wait for the beatings to start.
wait my razor blade, wait. | | |
| Its been a while since i said anything, So i figured i'd take this time to say that we're all alone. No one is there when you need them most so we all make mistakes. I used to think i needed nothing but now i see it was the people though very few as they may be, is what kept me from thinking. I've decided to go back with my mother. With her i dont need to worry if i "slip" up again. With her i can die. So i'll save, and save, and when monday comes in two days i'll tell the judge i want to go "home", I wanted to say Goodbye but that would be useless, you werent there to begin with... no one was.
List of things i need
1. Sleeping pills
2. Haroine
3. Rope
4. Water
5. Vodka
6. Can
7. Needle
8.Lighter
Ciao kiddies | | |
| Today my mind just couldnt stay,
Today my world it went away.
Goodbye | | |
| Beauty in the words I use to complain. I would make the world dissapear with just one swipe, I could cover up my pain with the false smiles and reasureing gestures as i do each and every day, but tonight I choose to be silent, I wont let them feel like what they do is right. I refuse to make them believe that I am completely happy. I can dround out my self pity and low self esteem with sex, I could lie, cheat and cut my wrists like i did before, but i wont, I refuse to do anything to make the pain inside my head go away. I'll deal with it and hold it on the inside until I snap enough to kill myself. There is Nothing to live for, weather or not you believe otherwise. | | |
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